Happy and at Peace

For about a month now, I have been following my daily tasks list, pretty much a daily schedule, but without having specific times set, a list of things I should accomplish morning, afternoon, and night. I know that for me, a schedule, and having specific times set, make me feel like a failure if I don't get everything done by a certain time. I do have goals in mind for getting up, for meals, and for going to bed, and for the most part, I do make those goals, but the rest of my day is pretty flexible.
I have found, though, that having my daily tasks written down and getting them done, along with finally having a menu written out, makes me so much happier and at peace. I enjoy being at home now, and I am not asking my darling mechanic almost every night if, "we can just go out so I don't have to look at this messy house anymore!" I am not stressed out all the time cause the house is a mess, and if you want to stop by for a visit, I won't be ashamed of my house, I will welcome you in with a smile.
Does this mean my house is always perfectly clean? Um, no. As much as I wish it was always perfectly clean, there are people living here, and that means that there will be messes, and the house will look lived in. And you know what? That is perfectly okay! For the most part, it is clean and tidy, and there is normally a candle lit, but what makes it home is that we are here.
Are there parts I want to change about our house? Yes there are, but I am learning to let go of my perfectionist side, and just be happy with the corner that is piled with my darling mechanic's tools, and such. If I don't get the bed perfectly made, that is okay. (And I am also learning that I need to let my mechanic make the bed because he makes it look much better than I do!)
At the end of the day though, I am happy when I go to bed, because I know I will wake up to a happy house, my amazing mechanic, little munchkin man kicking like crazy, and an idea of how my day will go. So, I can say that I am a happy and an at peace girl. :)

I don't have to be perfect

God has asked  me to be a lot, to be His daughter, to be a living witness for Him, to be my mechanic's wifeykins, to be a mommy to be to our munchkin, but there is one thing He has not asked me to be, He has not asked me to be perfect. When the house isn't fully cleaned and I am going to take a nap, when I have barely managed to get dressed and then sit on the couch and read all day and knit, it's okay.
I have always tried to live my life like I am the perfect angel, like I have everything under control, but I don't always. And you know what? That's okay! :) As long as I have a smile on my face, and somewhat of a supper ready for my mechanic, right now, it is okay. I am not using that I feel super sick as an excuse, and I have been trying to follow my daily routine, that I have called my Calmness routine.
So, thank goodness, God has not called me to be perfect, and I need to convince myself of that! :)

I am out from hiding

It has been forever since I have last posted, but life has been crazy. Getting ready for the wedding, continuing to unpack, and now having company for three weeks makes for one crazy life. It has been fun though :) the hardest part is that life is so crazy so mr. mechanic and i barely get to see each other :(
On a great note though, I have my wedding dress!! And my house is clean! And staying up until 3:30 isn't all that bad. On Monday, I will do a complete wedding planning recap, but until then, I will have a busy busy fun weekend :)