For about a month now, I have been following my daily tasks list, pretty much a daily schedule, but without having specific times set, a list of things I should accomplish morning, afternoon, and night. I know that for me, a schedule, and having specific times set, make me feel like a failure if I don't get everything done by a certain time. I do have goals in mind for getting up, for meals, and for going to bed, and for the most part, I do make those goals, but the rest of my day is pretty flexible.
I have found, though, that having my daily tasks written down and getting them done, along with finally having a menu written out, makes me so much happier and at peace. I enjoy being at home now, and I am not asking my darling mechanic almost every night if, "we can just go out so I don't have to look at this messy house anymore!" I am not stressed out all the time cause the house is a mess, and if you want to stop by for a visit, I won't be ashamed of my house, I will welcome you in with a smile.
Does this mean my house is always perfectly clean? Um, no. As much as I wish it was always perfectly clean, there are people living here, and that means that there will be messes, and the house will look lived in. And you know what? That is perfectly okay! For the most part, it is clean and tidy, and there is normally a candle lit, but what makes it home is that we are here.
Are there parts I want to change about our house? Yes there are, but I am learning to let go of my perfectionist side, and just be happy with the corner that is piled with my darling mechanic's tools, and such. If I don't get the bed perfectly made, that is okay. (And I am also learning that I need to let my mechanic make the bed because he makes it look much better than I do!)
At the end of the day though, I am happy when I go to bed, because I know I will wake up to a happy house, my amazing mechanic, little munchkin man kicking like crazy, and an idea of how my day will go. So, I can say that I am a happy and an at peace girl. :)
